I sit here and it's way too late to be up, let alone blogging. But here I am...thinking about my past week's events. I think I've had and displayed every emotion that a woman could have.
Tears: I've cried more these past two weeks than I have in ten years. My sweet Christian doctor has cancer and it's serious. He has been such an inspiration to all of us and to patients and has been a pioneer in his field. It hurts when a someone that is needed so much isn't there any more.
Smiles and Laughter: When somone's been deathly sick and then they bounce back and start bossing you around like they used to...it just makes you smile.
Children are theraputic. My neices and nephews are always doing or saying something that makes me laugh. One is wearing her sparkly red shoes with everything whether it matches or not. Another goes into detail about his video games like they're real. One niece uses sign language because she's too young to really talk, like...blowing kisses and holding your car keys when she wants to leave. I also love that she tells you she has to potty just so she can wash her hands. And the darling baby. The child who still laughs at every face you make and breaks into a sweet smile when you walk in the room. How can anyone be sad around these kids?
Anger: Someone wasn't paying attention in traffic and slammed on breaks in front of me making me spill all the contents of my purse into the floor. That purse has lots of small contents. Sometimes I wish I had the time to follow these people and make them pick up my stuff. Sounds ridiculous now, but I was really mad then.
Annoyance: It really bugs me when someone doesn't park straight in their parking space. Just because your between the lines doesn't mean it's appropriate. Does anyone care about parking etiquette?!
Frustration: Getting up early and going to bed late is not a good combination and leads to weariness of the mind, soul, spirit. Yet I can't seem to get in bed earlier or sleep later and that frustrates me.
Isn't it interesting how God gives us such emotions and how we use them in daily lives. Maybe I ought to rethink how I use the emotions He's given and find a proper time to laugh, smile, cry, show anger and get frustrated. Maybe I ought to pray about proper emotion so that I know when to let things slide and when to follow people to their work. And the good emotions...I hope I never forget the things that make me have those good emotions. Memories of sweet kiddos or funny actions or sweet smiles are something that I never want to forget.
I think I'm beginning to see that I'm thankful for my emotions.
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